10 October 2017

Oktober in the US

Onedia asked me to get back to blogging.As  I was visiting the US after a gap of two years, i thought that would provide some inspiration to blog again.  But it was not till yesterday,  a beautiful Fall day here in Illinois, that I felt like blogging.
I went for a morning walk by the lake near here and it was such a beautiful day it seemed unbelievable.  This was the first time I can recall seeing a really cloudless sky--'Not a cloud in the sky, and the sun in my eye, and I won't be surprised if it's a dream'.Beautiful!  Besides, it was my 66th birthday, and as it was a Sunday, we went apple picking. My son drove out to a place in Wisconsin and it was like a festival, packed with people, live music, food, apple orchards and a pumpkin patch.   The whole experience was fun. But Mother Nature added the extra zing.  It was a beautiful day.
I have been enjoying Fall, watching the leaves, on some of the trees, turn colour in the two weeks we have been here.  But I am sorry not to see some of the wild life I saw in the summers that I was here.
There are still a large number of birds though an I have seen two different types of woodpeckers apart from the robins and sparrows.  I hope I will find more to blog about in the coming days.

23 March 2017

Cinders (Cindy) and Ginger

I now have two dogs, 2 streeties/pariahs that i picked up from this incredible woman, who is certainly in the lowest income level, living in a small house on government land, with just a tiny open space in front of her house, and she looks after strays, puppies that people bring her, injured dogs etc.  Luckily there is a vet who goes in once a month to take a look at her doggie residents and give them their vaccinations.  So I picked up two females, who are now a year old.  They are both small, which is fine by me.

31 March 2016

My Elsa died this morning.
My husband and I were away from Saturday morning to Monday noon.  When we got back, my girl seemed a bit tired and was limping.  I looked at all her feet in turn and could find nothing.  The tiredness I put down to the heat.  The next day she was walking better but was still tired.  Yesterday, she did not eat anything the whole day.  By night her breathing had got heavier and she was very tired.  As the night wore on, her breathing became more and more laboured.  But as we have no emergency veterinary services, I had to wait for the morning to take her to the hospital.
At 5 am she came outside with me and just lay down near my feet.  I could take her only by 8am.  We put her into the vehicle but she died way before we reached the hospital.
I will miss her so much.  She played a big part in helping me cope with my eldest's passing away.  She was only 6.
Here is a video of her taken maybe a year or so back
video

08 February 2016

Yesterday

Yesterday was my eldest's 3rd death(say it Sue--'death')anniversary.  We had the Mass in church and the prayers near the grave--which is a family vault--and then my husband's siblings and families, who live in this town, came over for breakfast.  I got through the day.  My children left after lunch.  I loaded the dishwasher, cleaned the kitchen and the lump in my chest kept getting bigger.  But after all that, my husband just started saying something about the day and the dam burst.  It took a good part of 15 to 20 minutes before I was all cried out.
Life is certainly going on and I am doing new things some of which are very interesting and absorbing.  But I realise the missing never goes away and I think of so many other parents who have gone through what I have and carry on with their lives as though nothing is the matter, but I'm sure hiding this big pain inside.
Well today is another day.

31 January 2016

'The day I rode a cop car' --link

I thought I would post a link to my memories blog about this post, which wasn't really a memory from way back but happenned to me when I was in the US in 2009.  The whole incident was hilarious.

31 December 2015

Christmas (just) past

And so another Christmas is gone.  I no longer feel the enthusiasm to take out our tree from storage and decorate it.  Luckily for me, my daughter & her daughter came over for a weekend (she lives 2 hrs drive away) and decorated the tree.

This time, for dinner on Christmas Day, my daughter and family and a nephew and niece were with us.  I cannot believe that I cooked a dinner, all by myself, me, for whom cooking is a depressing chore!  We had a chicken roast, a coca-cola pork pot roast, beans with bacon, a mushroom sauce, salad, garlic bread and icecream for dessert.  I think I'm writing this down just to remind myself, at some later date, that I actually did it.  Incidentally, except for the chicken, the recipes I got mostly through pinterest.  Thank you Pinterest!  Unfortunately nobody thought of taking any pictures.

Well now the end of 2015 is almost upon us.  I do hope that 2016 will be a more peaceful year than this one was.  Wishing everyone a peaceful and productive 2016.

20 December 2015

Winter in Kerala

It is winter here 9.6°N of the equator.  The sun shines with almost as much heat as usual.  But the angle of the sunlight is different.  The quality of the light makes the air feel just a tad cooler, the bird calls sound wintry and as I look at the sky I feel a yearning, [as Hans Christian Andersen's ugly duckling must have felt when he saw the other swans flying south at the beginning of winter] a yearning to be a bird, flying high in the thinner air.  There is also a tug in my heart, a nostalgia for times gone by.  The light makes me aware that another year is on it's way out and a new one to come, hopefully more peaceful than this one was.
The shadows chase each other outside my window, but the shadows are fuzzy, not stark and the light gentle.
I love the December light.