October 5th, 46th birthday.

Yesterday was my eldest's birthday.  He would have been 46.  He was a person who left so many happy memories, in spite of all the bodily trials he had to go through.  He is still so much a part of our lives and the lives of his family and friends.  Mostly we can talk about him without grief, because he was a whole human being, with good and bad and he was one who acknowledged his faults pretty well.  But sometimes, knowing he is not there overwhelms me and I recall an article I read about grief and how it comes at unexpected times and then just takes over you.  I now accept that grief as a part of my life, but I also remember him with happiness.