This post by Mary Ann over at Desperately Seeking Serenity made me think. She talks about maybe overdoing the introspection and self-improvement thing. It so resonated with me.
I realised that I pay way too much attention on self-improvement, on becoming the 'perfect' me. But then again, a person actually has complete control only over oneself. There have been times in my life when I have felt that I had no control over many of the happenings in my life. But I knew that I could always have control over me.
But , I so often wish my mind would be still, without the constant barrage of critical appraisal going on for each of my actions--'That was a dumb thing to do'; 'What a stupid thing to say'; 'This is pure drivel' [:(] There are moments of 'That came out good' positive stuff too. Sometimes I so desperately wish my mind would shut up and let me do something without any appraisal going on.
Anyway, at my age, there is one thing I realise, I have come to a pretty good acceptance of my physical self, which I probably achieved with all the self-talk. So, in everything there's some good and some bad and moderation is the key I suppose.